doubting again
Time to finish everything I've ever started.. if I can

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I feel that I am more constricted in being myself at home than I am in being myself in New York. That might be an obvious thought I shouldn't even have to point out to anyone or myself, but I didn't think that I would come home to realize that I'm lonelier here now than I ever was before. And I didn't think that that was supposed to happen, but maybe that's supposed to be obvious and obviously inevitable, too.

Not having my license is a definite part of it. Not having made myself really available or communicable this past year is a definite part of it. There's a lot, going back to a lot more, that is all a definite part of it. The way I am and the way I am not is a definite part of it, but I'm still a little bit confused and troubled by this all.










Honestly, what am I ever going to do with these?